Anne On Fire
How Fire Ignites Our Lives
From Stove to Studio
“That’s so interesting. How did you get into acting?” is the usual comment and question I’m asked when people find out that I do voice over, tv commercials and the occasional film. There is a long answer and a short answer. Most people receive the short answer — I fell into it.
The long answer is the reason I write Anne on Fire. It answers the question: How does burning your leg on a stove at 2 years old lead one to the acting world?
From the research and interviews I’ve conducted, I learned that when my mother found me on the stove, sealed to it by the sole of my shoe and burning, I was in shock, unable to say a word or call out for help. As time went on, my wounds healed and I was a normal kid in every respect. Except that no one ever talked about the accident. Without that context, I was left alone to create my own meaning for the event.
Everything might have gone on just fine, had my mother not asked me to make her two promises on her deathbed. ”Don’t fight with your sisters,” she implored, a request that seemed incredibly difficult to me as the youngest of three girls. I reluctantly agreed. ”Use your talents. Promise me,” she asked, as we pressed on the morphine drip that eased her pain in those final days. That request seemed the easier of the two, especially since I’d always fancied myself as the creative one of her five children.
She passed. Time passed.
Now and then, I would have the distinct impression that she was whispering to me from beyond. Mostly I shrugged these moments off. Raised as a traditional Catholic, I certainly believed in the after-life. But the teachings were that we humans got just one shot at life, then pass on to our eternal future, where by all accounts, we wait in joyful hope of the coming of the rest of our loved ones to the pearly gates. There was no talk of secret messages passed along to those of us left behind. Eternal life meant we each went along in our separate domains. But what if she was trying to tell me something?
It was Christ Church in Alexandria, Virginia, old as the country itself where my cousin got married. He asked me to do a reading at the wedding and I’d read it over many times in preparation. Since elementary school, I had a long history of being asked to read in church and it always exhilarated me.
I climbed up to the church’s pulpit and pressed the reading flat with my hand. And then it happened. I looked up and somehow, some way, time was frozen. The people in the pews were frozen. Everything was silent and un-moving. I didn’t talk. I couldn’t talk. I felt as if I’d been in this place before. A soft whisper in my ear and I heard her, “Use your talents. You are not doing what I asked.”
Fumbling now and with shaky hands, I looked up to see the people moving, waiting for me to begin. I did. I read each word slowly and carefully, feeling a powerful surge as I ended the piece.
As I stepped back down to my seat, my legs wobbled and I noticed I was sweating. I looked around for acknowledgement but the ceremony just continued on. Something had happened and I needed to find out what it was.
I didn’t know it then but the acting career I never thought about before was about to begin.
NEXT: Part 2
Commercial Break
The whole topic of finding your voice sometimes needs some comic relief, a commercial break if you will.
Here is a short film intended to provide just that: The Unity Ball Bathroom Fund-A-Cause.
Hearing Voices Comedy series. In this clip, “the lawyers” are trying to find their voices.

Finding Your Voice…the Hard Way
“I don’t feel you are committing to what you are doing,” the casting agent said to me at today’s audition. “Mess it up more. Make it more real. Stop caring about it so much.” Casting direction came at me all at once and flustered me.
Of all the different things I’ve done in life, acting is one of the most challenging. Making something real isn’t just playing a part; it’s becoming part of it. In so many things we do in life, we can “phone it in,” or “fake it ’til we make it.” We play a part, whether it’s in the business world or somewhere else. We become conditioned to follow someone or some institution’s many rules. Do this. Do that. Follow what the sign says. Fit in. Understand the culture. To go along, get along.
Rarely are we asked to “mess it up” and express our authentic self. In fact, most of the time, we find ways to hide what’s real about our selves. Some days I wonder about this.
So there I was. As the casting director worked me over, I began to sweat. “You’re doing it as if you were looking for my approval,” she said. She was right. At this point, I was looking for her approval. “Don’t do that. Just have fun and see what comes up. If you go too over the top, I’ll pull you back. And don’t worry. We have lots of time.”
In the majority of acting and voice over jobs I do, there is specific but usually gentle direction. Yes, I’ve even been ‘accused’, criticized if you will, for having ‘too pretty’ of a voice. Now, once you get booked on a job, the client has every incentive to get you to do what envisioned and they certainly know that they catch more flies with honey than vinegar. Plus, you are already booked and on the job, and part of the reality is that clients don’t want to squander their investment. If you are moving the wrong way, they will tell you. If they want you to have more of a ‘smile’ in your read, you’ll hear it. If they want five extra takes even when they loved the first one, you’ll do them.
But today, I was face to face with a casting professional who seemed to read my mind and know my every insecurity. “Do you do a lot of voice over?” she asked before I could complete the first take. I nodded. “I can tell. Your voice is too perfect for this. Make it more real. Loosen up.”
Another take and finally I saw the casting assistant raise his arms in victory. I must have done something good but I had no idea what I had done. “I’m sweating,” I replied when she asked how that last take felt. “Good,” she said. “It means you finally showed up to the audition.”
As I left the office and walked out in to the bright sunshine, I was disoriented. Not sure where I was and so I walked, unsure whether to laugh or cry. I’d just eaten an audition and hadn’t felt this dejected in a while. In a way it was no big deal. Every actor knows that you have to eat a lot of auditions along the way.
But it made me think. Why was it so hard to find my voice today?
I wondered. And wondered some more. I thought about my voiceover friend Lynne and her thyroid cancer surgery. What would it be like to physically lose your voice when you use it for some source of income?
In many senses, my blog and my exploration to understand my childhood burn accident is all about finding my voice. I think a great deal about the story I learned on the day of the accident. My mother was ironing in the basement when I slipped upstairs to grab a treat from the cabinet above the stove. Call it intuition or just mothering, but my mom noticed I was missing and went to look for me. When she found me stuck to the stove and burning, I was silent, unable or unwilling to call out for help. I had lost my voice.
All these many years later, I am taking the time to find it. It’s no coincidence that I wandered my way into acting, voiceover and writing. When one door closes, a window opens. The older I get, the more I think about those windows.
Back to that audition. As much as I detested the moment, I am grateful to that casting agent for pushing me. Just imagine if we were all reminded every day to work harder to find our true voice. It’s certainly not easy but it is good.
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The Press-Gazette Publishes its Maggie Follow-Up Story
“There was a great deal of interest in the story I published on Maggie,” Green Bay Press-Gazette reporter Dian Page told me after her initial column on my search for the nurse named Maggie, which was published last month. “I’d like to do a follow-up story. Could you pass along some information on what you found?”
It took me about a week to return calls and emails from the many people who responded. It took an equal amount of time to process the thoughts and feelings it brought to me. It was incredibly touching that so many people were interested in my story and my search.
Today Dian published her follow-up story, Pediatrics Nurse Remembered Fondly By Many.
Have you ever searched for someone from your past? I’d like to hear about it.
In my Anne on Fire research, finding this much information on a “Maggie” — someone remembered but long-lost from contact — is unique. Talking to friends, relatives, siblings, doctors and others associated with my burn experience, their memories have varied widely. Just because the memories are vivid for me doesn’t mean they leave memorable impressions on others. One person’s crisis is not necessarily another’s. One person’s joy may be their own. It’s remarkable to have the perfect shared experience as I found in my search for Maggie.
For example, when I called the doctor listed as my pediatrician, he was receptive to my call. He had known my parents for many years and I had gone to high school with his son. As much as he remembered our family, he had to scratch his head about me. He certainly remember me but not the story of the burn even though it was 99% certain that he was there during the initial stages. When I talked to my father-in-law (a retired surgeon) about his, he reminded me about the volume of work and the many sleepless night he spent doing surgery after surgery. Of course, he remembered many of his patients and their specific stories but helped me understand how impossible it would be to remember every detail as a patient would.
All of this is what makes the Maggie story so remarkable. From everyone I talked to and everything I learned, I know Maggie always remembered me. As a nurse’s aid, I was told, Maggie would have had the time to spend with her little patients — unlike the duties calling the regular nurses and doctors. And that is what people remembered about Maggie: The time she gave to those she loved.
It’s something to know and remember about life. The time we spend with others is the most lasting gift of all.
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Paul’s 11-Cent Dare
As February gives way to March, the waning gray winter days have yelped out for some inspiration. When I read Paul Trout’s wonderful blog post, Create Your Own Luck: The 11-cent Dare, the other day, inspiration arrived.
As Paul explained on his website blog Paul Trout Executive Consulting, “The problem with waiting for luck to happen to one’s self is very “me-centric.” What if you could create your own luck by being others’ “unexpected serendipity”? In other words, can you create luck for yourself by helping others feel lucky?” If you read the rest of Paul’s post, you’ll see that he does in fact create his own sense of good fortune by randomly distributing 11 pennies.
When I checked my coin purse this morning, it contained exactly 11 pennies — a true sign that I should take his 11-cent dare. For the second time since since reading Paul’s post , inspiration had hit and I hadn’t even begun the challenge.
As readers of Anne on Fire may know, I am a penny fan. There are encounters with serendipity, life’s little good luck charms or just small bits of encouragement. Apparently pennies intrigue other people too — roughly 100 people have randomly visited my blog and the I Find Pennies post through Internet searches for “Finding Pennies,” and ”What Do Pennies Mean?”
Like Paul Trout, I’d always been “me-centric” about pennies, wondering where they came from and what meaning they held for me. It’s about time that I initiated the chain and scattered some random pennies.
Bunching 11 pennies in my hand, I walked outside Along the block around my office, I dropped a penny here and there. In the minute it took to walk to my car, I saw three people exit the job re-training center and spot a penny on the ground. One of them leaned over and picked it up. It felt good to see it.
“The psychological secret of opportunity is that human beings are programmed to reciprocate to those who have helped them. But when they can’t help the person who helped them directly immediately, they often help others,” Paul wrote on his blog.
I am on my way. Thank you Paul Trout.
Will you join in the 11-cent dare?
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Drumroll Please……It’s Published
True to her word, reporter Dian Page published an Article in the Green Bay Press-Gazette today that has my palms sweating. ”Daughters Take the Literary World by Storm,” reads the headline.
It’s a cliffhanger.
Will anyone read it? Will anyone have information? Will the daughters really take the literary world by storm?
Stay tuned.
“It’ll Run on Tuesday.”
One of the great ideas I received after writing about my search to find Maggie– the nurse who cared for me when I was in the hospital after burning my leg — was to contact the local newspaper and have them link to the blog posts. Honestly, I hadn’t thought of that. instead I was working on the copy for a call-out in the personal ads. But the more I thought about it, the smarter it seemed. Armed with a cup of coffee for both caffeine and courage, I called a long-time columnist at the Green Bay Press-Gazette and spilled out the story of my search.
“Now, that’s kind of interesting,” reporter Dian Page said. “Tell me about your ties to Green Bay.” My ties of course are many, including having a brother and a sister who still work and live in the area. “Well, send me an email summarizing what we talked about and I’ll see what I can do.” Quickly, I pounded out the story summary on my keyboard, hit the send button and that was that.
Only if you have ever pitched the press, you can never be sure what happens next other than the fact that you usually wait. Your story, your idea, your pitch if you will is no longer so much yours as someone else’s. The media had just become the filter between me and my target audience — anyone who might have information about Maggie-the-Nurse or my story for that matter.
Days passed and I sort of forgot I had even done this.
When the phone rang yesterday with an unknown 414 exchange, I let it go to voice mail. Probably another one of those “you’ve won a vacation!” scams or something. But when I listened to the voice mail, it was Dian from the Green Bay Press-Gazette, calling to fact-check a few things about the story. “It’ll run on Tuesday,” she said. “Good luck. I hope it helps and you find some information.”
It’ll run on Tuesday, January 31st. I don’t know what exactly is going to ‘run’ — what piece or part of the story — but I do know there’s power in the press and that everyone and their brother reads the local paper. Now this, is going to get interesting.
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